A cry for help

Hi, this is my trying my chances here. I know this is for a long shot and this fundraiser sounds selfish. But this is a cry for help as I don’t know what to do. 

Context: I got depressed. My trading floos, I got liquidated and resorted to gambling and wanted to end my life. But before I do that, I have to fight at least and try every method I can. This fundraiser will help me get back on track, pay some of the loans and the rest is for capital and planning to put up a business selling sacks of rice and helping farmers. Help my life to have a bit of breathing room and I promise when everything goes smoothly, I will pay it forward. I believe in humanity and I do believe in second chances and I want you all to be part of that transition.